:3

sometimes,

we all need a little superhuman powers.

to believe in ourselves.

to do the impossible.

to achieve our goals.

i believe in my intelligence,

after doubting it yesterday.

i believe in your intelligence,

for living life thus far.

there's this quote:

cherish sunny days as they last.

similarly,

cloudy days will come to pass too.

when trouble comes,

it just means that,

god has faith...

in you.

religions... my conscience?

well then, does a person have to have a religion?

what if, the person, a good person,

deemed moral by the community,

suddenly decides that he or she is an atheist,

but still is a compassionate sympathiser?

personally,

i go based on my conscience.

i believe that the rules of religion

were based on one thing, and merely that,

that is, a person's conscience.

i decide on things,

by referring to myself, as a human being.

i regard religions globally as one universal practice,

a threshold meaning to enshrine our core humanity.

i accept common cultures that are beneficial to many, and follow them.

however, i go by no religion.

or, as i might like to think, i go by all of them.

but how do i call myself then?

a conscience-r? XD

i go into the temple most often, and look at the statues.

i talk to them, and tell them how beautiful they are today.

because it is, after all, unfair for them

to be listening to a whole lot of grumbles and curses all day long.

i pray for happiness and health, peace and love, safety...

and well, sometimes, i try to speak myself out of my laziness.

this is me.

speaking about my conscience and my belief.

clarifying myself to myself.

as a homo sapien.

>.<"

oh. my. god.

i'm falling into the hole.

the hole.

the dark alley staring back at me.

glaring, in fact.

laziness.

go away. shoo. >.<"

addiction to the internet.

die. shoo. shoo. >.<"

sleepiness.

stop it. i'll give you your due when its time.

concentration.

return. i shall feed thy delicious food.

self- control.

do grow. i love you. 0o0.

Portia Nelson- There's a Hole in My Sidewalk

I walk down the street,

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I fall in.

I am lost...

I am helpless.

It isn't my fault.

It takes forever to find a way out.

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I pretend I don't see it.

I fall in again.

I can't believe I am in the same place. But, it isn't my fault.

It still takes a long time to get out.

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I see it there.

I still fall in... it's a habit.

My eyes are open. I know where I am. It is my fault.

I get out immediately.

I walk down the same street.

There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.

I walk around it.

I walk down another street.

found a book under my desk during bio period this morning.

seemed like an interesting poem to me.

therefore i copied it into my notebook, and blogged about it.

only to keep it forever available for me. ;3

saya bangat suka sajak ini. bangat bangat suka.

st. valentine's story...

*cow chua kah mun says:
sad sad story
maybe they didnt like him?
coz he's a casanova?

shalz says:
maybe hor
eh?
good thought
i shall read up on him
and do a thorough research
and get back to u

*cow chua kah mun says:
haha
good idea

shalz says:
maybe he dated the queen?!

*cow chua kah mun says:
wah!

shalz says:
therefore the king got angry?!

*cow chua kah mun says:
maybe

shalz says:
and then he kena chop?!
then the king was happy

*cow chua kah mun says:
most likely
XD

shalz says:
and so... was born valentine's day
0o0
hoh

*cow chua kah mun says:
haha
or maybe
he dated the princess

shalz says:
0.0
but why is he a saint then?

*cow chua kah mun says:
then he turned the princess into a monster

shalz says:
saints dont date, do they? ?0?
...

*cow chua kah mun says:
like shrek

shalz says:
monster...?
... =.=" XD

*cow chua kah mun says:
yes!

shalz says:
ok, then?

*cow chua kah mun says:
and den

shalz says:
oh i know

*cow chua kah mun says:
born the story of shrek lor?

shalz says:
bec the princess was a spoiled brat?!
eh...
like tht ah?
XD

*cow chua kah mun says:
ah
i know
the princess was a spoilt brat

shalz says:
but shrek only mentions prince charming

*cow chua kah mun says:
so the God asked him to teach her a lesson
and he turned her into a monster

shalz says:
ahh
and then leh?
how come he kena chop?

*cow chua kah mun says:
then the king found out
asked him to return the real princess
i mean to her beautiful form
but he refused
and he started his tao wang zhi lv
but still
he got caught
when he was disguising as an old man
in the market
selling pots?
or vases?
the guards captured him
and bang!
he was locked in the jail
and there goes his head
becoz he was so thick headed

shalz says:
...

*cow chua kah mun says:
=='

shalz says:
XD

*cow chua kah mun says:
lol

shalz says:
no lah
he didnt disguise himself as an old man
but as the new casanova

*cow chua kah mun says:
lol
good!

shalz says:
the princess soon forgot about st valentines
and got charmed by him

*cow chua kah mun says:
oo

shalz says:
and then...

*cow chua kah mun says:
and he fell for her too!

shalz says:
uhuh
and since casanova was of a very poor background
the king forbid the match

*cow chua kah mun says:
;o

shalz says:
he arranged the marriage of his daughter to a nearby kingdom's prince

*cow chua kah mun says:
noooooo!!!!

shalz says:
a place called far far away
T^T
and then

*cow chua kah mun says:
T.T
sad~~~

shalz says:
casanova a.k.a st. valentines
with his broken heart...

*cow chua kah mun says:
raindrops keep falling on my head

shalz says:
surrendered to the king
saying that...
T^T
since ur daughter betrayed me, i shall kill u instead!

*cow chua kah mun says:
o.O

shalz says:
( valentine became a mad man after the princess left)
shi lian zhua kuang zhen 14124

*cow chua kah mun says:
haha
lol

shalz says:
so he used a keris he got from god

*cow chua kah mun says:
keris?!

shalz says:
all the way from tanah melayu

*cow chua kah mun says:
sultan melaka?

shalz says:
yep

*cow chua kah mun says:
LOL!

shalz says:
to tikam the king

*cow chua kah mun says:
hang jebat and hang tuah's story
XD

shalz says:
as he charged forward, he uttered:

*cow chua kah mun says:
wow

shalz says:
mangkatlah sultan jahanam ini
XD

*cow chua kah mun says:
hahahahaha

shalz says:
and
a ray of light shined

*cow chua kah mun says:
i didnt know western countries oso have sultan

shalz says:
got
they used to have

*cow chua kah mun says:
oo

shalz says:
but the sultans were all killed u see?
in the dark ages

*cow chua kah mun says:
and st valentines speak malay?

shalz says:
oh

*cow chua kah mun says:
haha
it's funny
XD

shalz says:
he teletransported himself to tanah melayu mah
i told u

*cow chua kah mun says:
lol!

shalz says:
he became mad

*cow chua kah mun says:
or maybe he should just jampi the king

shalz says:
therefore his powers were uncontrollable

shalz says:
eh... ya black magic
but cannot wor

*cow chua kah mun says:
den the prince took revenge for the father
lol

shalz says:
then they wont know who jampi-ed the king
no ending

*cow chua kah mun says:
lol
ok
so he stabbed the king
den?
did the king die?

shalz says:
no no
the king cannot die lah
if not who'll sentence him to be chopped?!
eh
ya
nonono
i change my story
the king dies
the princess returns

*cow chua kah mun says:
lol

shalz says:
for her father's funeral
during the funeral
princess: father~ FA..A.A... THER~!!! <>

*cow chua kah mun says:
hmmm

shalz says:
then somebody laughing in the dark
ngehehehe

*cow chua kah mun says:
o.o
valentines!

shalz says:
ur betrayal has caused ur pain todaY

*cow chua kah mun says:
but
the princess loved him wor?

shalz says:
gai si13
but still, the princess got married mah

*cow chua kah mun says:
coz it's an order ma

shalz says:
she should have had the guts to run away,

*cow chua kah mun says:
XD

shalz says:
or like romeo and juliet, drink poison
... 0o0

*cow chua kah mun says:
haha

shalz says:
XDD
so yeah

*cow chua kah mun says:
yea?
uh huh?

shalz says:
valentines... looking at the princess...
suddenly very sakit hati

*cow chua kah mun says:
urghghh

shalz says:
ran out of hiding

*cow chua kah mun says:
arghhh

shalz says:
and just charged at the princess

*cow chua kah mun says:
p...a....i...nnn
rawr!

shalz says:
ahhhhhhh

*cow chua kah mun says:
raaaarrrr!

shalz says:
JULIET!!!!


*cow chua kah mun says:
o.O?
lol

shalz says:
XDD
JULIET!!!
i loved u so...

*cow chua kah mun says:
i love you so much!

shalz says:
i love u...
yes. good one chua.

shalz says:
then he hugged her and told of what he had done to the king
he hugged her too tightly
sampai she suffocated
her face turned purple

*cow chua kah mun says:
hohohohoho
hehehehee
purple carrot
hahaha

shalz says:
yep
and out she vomitted a note...

*cow chua kah mun says:
dear valentine

shalz says:
saying that: i love valentine. u'll forever be in my heart

shalz says:
eh
u continue

*cow chua kah mun says:
*clap clap*
you will always be the only one in my heart

shalz says:


*cow chua kah mun says:
it doesnt matter if you killed my daddy

shalz says:
eh..

*cow chua kah mun says:
because
wait
i'm gonna kill you!!!

shalz says:
...

*cow chua kah mun says:
hahah

shalz says:
hahaha

*cow chua kah mun says:
and she took an axe from the air
since she's a monster
and chopped his head off
i'm so sorry but i love you
too much
lol
weird la
why dun you just continue from whr u ended just now?

shalz says:
fuiyoh
chua
ur version like anime punye

*cow chua kah mun says:

shalz says:
she turned into an akuma

*cow chua kah mun says:
akuma?

shalz says:
and avenged her dad's death
akuma is monster

*cow chua kah mun says:
oo
haha
LOL

shalz says:
i learned it from d-gray man
XD

*cow chua kah mun says:
aish
let your imaginatin run wild night
XD

shalz says:
u still want me to continue?
XD

*cow chua kah mun says:
yes

shalz says:
okay
after reading the note filled with i love u's

*cow chua kah mun says:
yes?

shalz says:
valentines regretted his actions
he kept on saying
i should've abducted her!!!

*cow chua kah mun says:

shalz says:
i should've destroyed far far away!
i should've ... should've... T^T
JULIET!!!!!!!!!

*cow chua kah mun says:
"LIKE"

shalz says:
ju...li...et....
uhuhuhuhuhu
in the midst of valentine's struggle with his own mind,
valentine was captured!
by the king! who resurrected from his coffin

*cow chua kah mun says:
deng deng deng

shalz says:
he said: gotcha!
with a wink
and then...
the king saw his daughter... on the floor... sudah mati...
he said: u evil monster. how dare u kill ur beloved?! i sent u here to spread love! not hatred!
(in reality, the king is God)
how dare u

*cow chua kah mun says:
o.o

shalz says:
u, as my angel of love
killing others

*cow chua kah mun says:
i'm wrong

shalz says:
i shall behead u for the sins u've done

*cow chua kah mun says:
pls forgive me
pleaseee

shalz says:
no.

*cow chua kah mun says:
i've lost my Juliet

shalz says:
never.

*cow chua kah mun says:
the pain

shalz says:
this. is ur mistake.
ur carelessness.
u must suffer!

*cow chua kah mun says:
the..... pa...in...

shalz says:
the pain?

*cow chua kah mun says:
n...n...ooo....
in my heart
its unbearable

shalz says:
well then, hell would suit u best, wouldn't it?

*cow chua kah mun says:
hahaha

shalz says:
XDD
come people!

*cow chua kah mun says:
i will bring Juliet with me
no one can seperate us

shalz says:
send him this evil monster to the gallows!!!

*cow chua kah mun says:
no one can tear us apart*

shalz says:
no.

shalz says:
she is my child

*cow chua kah mun says:
*drags Juliet's body*

shalz says:
u are nothing but a betrayer of love

*cow chua kah mun says:
*holds on to the hand*

shalz says:
guards

*cow chua kah mun says:
*cold cold hands*
NNNNOOOOOO!

shalz says:
chop the monster's hand of my daughter's body

*cow chua kah mun says:
You cant do this to me

shalz says:
shing!!!!

*cow chua kah mun says:
Arggghhhh
*blood spurts out*

shalz says:

*cow chua kah mun says:
aahhhhh

shalz says:
like strawberry fountain

*cow chua kah mun says:
my hands

shalz says:
X3

*cow chua kah mun says:
lol
my hands

shalz says:
out came 2 guards

*cow chua kah mun says:
you!

shalz says:
with 2 big axes
shing shing

*cow chua kah mun says:
you foolish old man!
you nvr knew the importance of me eh?

shalz says:
i have no need of an angel who has lost his mind
heart even

*cow chua kah mun says:
the people will never be able to find their true loves

shalz says:
and so?

*cow chua kah mun says:
it's a curse
NEVER!

shalz says:
i'll let them live a different life

*cow chua kah mun says:
i swear!

shalz says:
with polygamy and unfaithfulness available in each part of the world

*cow chua kah mun says:
we shall see

shalz says:
they will be happy

*cow chua kah mun says:
who's the ultimate winner

shalz says:
they shall
fine

*cow chua kah mun says:
i will make them suffer

shalz says:
chop chop
sudah mati lah

*cow chua kah mun says:
haha

shalz says:
so long never die wan

*cow chua kah mun says:
wrong timing

shalz says:
XD

*cow chua kah mun says:
XD

shalz says:
die die

*cow chua kah mun says:
urghh
*plonk*
*head drops*
*body wiggles*
*finger still pointing at king*
*2 round eyes staring at king*
you should say Amen
XD
and do the cross on the chest

shalz says:
amen
The Cross
may u rest in hell
XDD

well, this story was made up by chua and i. 0104.

p.s: just for laughs.... no offences whatsoever. :D

the great gravitational field strength 0.0

i think gravity's pulling me down.

0.0

i'm now an extra 2 kgs from last week,

5 kgs from my stable weight.

0.0

i suspect global warming

and the loss of water and land erosion

to be the cause of the lessening earth's diameter,

leading to a stronger gravitational field strength,

fluctuating my estimated weight value.

0.0

the gravitational force is oh-so-unpredictable.

i am officially confounded by its complexity.

where from the extra kgs came from?! >.<"

expand earth! EXPAND!!! X3

You Know?

0.0

i just realised that~

my best birthday present

is...

.THIS.

aih aih aih.

i ca't help but love this picture. =")

even with my shy pa looking like an inmate :P

by the way,

citappa flew to australia on wednesday.

shary, trini and cinamma left today...

dyi and i went with premnika, ranjinika, atte and aj.

aj was so excited,

she was mopping the floors of KLIA for free. =.="

even when she fell,

or walked into body shop's glass door,

all was well.

trini had fun chasing her around,

while shary played hide and seek with her.

cinamma's ma, aunty tina and her 2 boys were there too.

10+ year old ajav told trini:

remember to eat JUNK! JUNK AH~ XD

cinamma cried. shary cried.

sakit hati bila nampak mereka menangis. T^T

i think ajav cried in the car. XP

i'll miss them.

dyi will, pa will, a whole lot of other people will.

i'm already missing them.**

oh and,

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

ma's been cooking everyday for us.

life, is good in every way. =3

except for the fact that i haven't started on my homework yet. XD

to vik and dai:

since vik ate mcd's and

dai ate cucumber pickle with rice for cny eve,

remember to ask for a replacement reunion dinner

when you're back in malaysia.

so that i get to eat ma's food again. XD

oh ya,

here goes... a big clap to appa! \(^0^)/

my pa is oh-so-smart,

appa~ you're so smart~ way too smart~ smart smart~

since my brain's a mixture of appa and amma's,

i guess i'll turn out average.

an average-r. =P

but ma's good at her work too...

>.<"

so i guess i'll be a good worker then? >.<"

stay safe, happy and healthy people.

don't eat too much for this festive season. 0o0

drink lots of water and have fun~