A state of Mind.

A mere listener?

i wonder...

if people actually listen.

to other people.

to themselves.

i find that we often tend to express our own opinions,

rather aggressively upon others,

just to satisfy our own egos.

to think of it: who really cares?

we're too busy trying to butt in into another's problem,

too busy voicing out our voices,

and therefore, left with too little time for contemplation.

and what do we ponder about,

during the scarce hours of absolute silence?

most of the times, it's about our regrets.

a sadly true fact.

well, its a blade that has two ends.

reflecting on our actions might bring enraged mood swings.

however, it is also a humane trait that allows space for improvements.

so i guess, we reflect.

and i hope, that we try, at least try, to listen.

without prejudice and cussedness.

mr. liam, my chemistry teacher said this in class:

i'd rather be blind and see with my heart.

is there such a thing as:

i'd rather be deaf and listen with my heart?

i am still prejudiced.

even after many years of reflection.

i wonder:

can a human truly be unbiased?

i hope so.

^0^

today, nalla went to the temple.

when she came back, she saw me, and asked:

" do you go to the temple? "

i said yes.

she left.

shortly after, she came back with a beetle-nut leaf.

a red- stained leaf of kunkumam.

i think that is how people spell it.

and well, she put it for me.

hahaha.

i don't know why. but i just feel really happy.

this is:

happiness in simplicity. i guess.

:")

Silent gratitude isn't much use to anyone. ~ G.B. Stern

i hereby express my gratefulness to the people around me,

the people i've gotten to know,

lord knows i've been taught many things by them,

the way life has turned out,

the assurance of waking up for another day of franticness,

and anticipating new experiences.

i'm grateful to myself too. :D

for being able to look at myself,

squarely in my face, and tell myself:

" i like you." and smile.

and feel satisfied about it.

thank you, living things,

and thank you, self. xoxo.

A bored post.

lalala.
lalalala.
lalalalala.

what did i do today?
nothing.

what did i see today?
nothing much either.

what did i eat today?
hmm...
bread for breakfast, maggi for lunch, kaya puff for tea time, toast with cheese, baked beans, sausages and a carton of HL milk for dinner.
:3

what am i going to do tomorrow?
well...
we'll talk about it tomorrow. XD.

for the people of Japan

well, what do people say when there's a tugging feeling right down at the corner of their hearts?

i feel sad.

i grieve for the people in Japan.

tears cannot possibly portray their sufferings.

Many have died. Many are missing.

Radiation levels are high.

After that painful ordeal in 1945,

After living in years of fear and suspicion,

yet another nuclear tragedy happens.

I pity the living.

for the uncertainties that will forever plague their lives.

I pray for their future.

I hope they have faith,

for faith drives people on, even in the bleakest of times.

Reading the news and commenting about this matter does not help the people.

However, the minuscule thought that goes to them might.

so, i think of them and i pray, for them.

And for the rest of the world.

awkwardness

i am,

at lots of times,

awkward with myself.

awkward with other people too.

especially when i'm in robot mode.

met my primary school friend this afternoon.

acted like a complete weirdo. yet again.

this is the least of my problems.

>.<" or at least i think so.

i am putting on weight.

i wonder why.

actually, i know why.

so yeah. :3

i'll bear with the weight.

i lived life as a hermit today.

secluding myself from the crowd.

just doing what i enjoy doing.

that is, lazying around.

mwahaha.

assignments, be done.

meaning: please find yourself a hardworking prey,

and come back to me when you're done. :D