happiness.

amma's very happy with her fish curry today.

apparently, the two (seemingly) sweet tomatoes did the trick. XD

appa's happy that we're making noise at home.

and by the way, i think i forgot to inform you that all four of us are finally at home together! ^0^

finally. :")

vik's happy for no reason.

that's of no shock, being the happy bird he is. ;D

dai is well, dai.

i think she's happy because she's at home.

doing the dishes and picking up hair, eh dai? XP

dyi is extremely happy for certain reasons.

one is because of her new zune player, and the other, her new webcam.

plus, she gets to fly to brunei mid jan next year!

i'm happy because everyone's happy.

and that, i had tons of food to eat,

bunches of people to meet,

plenty of laughter and flab to grow. XD

p.s: one funny thing.

when dai was in singapore, she had jet lag and therefore, slept way past noon.

my dear sunflower went to wake her up.

she shook dai gently by her arms,

upon seeing her open an eye, said:

atte, atte~

wake up.

its morning.

the sun is shining and the birds are singing.

you must wake up early, like paathi and mama!

ah, my dear sunflower,

talking in her sun shiny language, as usual. =3

Merry Christmas! :D

it's that time of the year again, humans!!

Merry Christmas!!! *0*

i am a hundred percent thankful for the food,

yes food, must come first; :P

family... so many of them: ma's and pa's side.

friends, esp. the one who called me with ...

well, a "hohoho" greeting. =")

may all of you live life happily,

with lots of food i.e. cake.

and... fun. =3

mwahaha... ciao.

fml gt 2010

regarding matters that require decision making,
ganesh citappa quotes martin luther king at the dining table.
too much analysis causes PARALYSIS.

asking shary about the henna on her palms.
i've been waiting for A HUNDRED MILLION YEARS.

taking vanoo to pluck flowers, but ended up plucking a flower for her.
reason: ANTS.
there are ants on the flower!
can you please pick one for me?
i'll be brave when i grow up.
the ants will attack small kids like anantha jothi.

while peeling apple skin for the punch.
me: i'm so slow in doing this.
aswene: that's how you learn. keep on doing it.
deepa: never mind. take your time.
trini: shalenee akka's always slow. hahaha.
----------------=.=''----------------------->.<"--------------------=.=''-------------------- later... after trini went away, i voiced out my decision to not peel apples with a knife again.

deepa akka finds sitting and listening the sound of the waves calming.

apparently, during her last site visit to cambodia, she sat by the beach from 9 p.m. tp 2 a.m.

during lunch, i requested shary to eat 8 mouths of food.

i'm 5 years old, so i only need to eat 5 mouths.
when i become 8 years old, i'll eat 8 mouths.
when i'm 10 years old, then i'll eat 10 mouths!

anantha jothi speaks a lot now. like a parrot. non- stop. she screams too.
she's able to wave and say: bye~
she can count up to 4.
she swims her way out of trouble by calling appa? appa~ or atte? atte~ (you get the point)

vanoo stayed in rukumani atte's house for a few days.
apparently, the 4 year-old got bullied by the one year 4 month-old.
this is how it was.
atte gave a gummy bear each to aj and vanoo.
as usual, vanoo took her own sweet time to savour the gummy bear.
aj just plopped the gummy into her mouth, walked calmly and cooly pass vanoo, grabbed vanoo's gummy from her hand and plopped it into her own mouth.
vanoo started crying and complaining.
it happened for a second time.
even vanoo's toys were under the control of little tyrant aj.

i slept in the living room together with a whole lot of people.
i noticed something very peculiar.
there were snores.
of course, how would that be weird, right?
but trust me when i say that it sounded like the cries of a whale.
so many people, 4 loud snores, all at their own intervals and individuality.

kabadi on the beach was fun. so was football. and ping pong. the straw, paper clips and paper game. banana boat and the boat ride.
the barbequed chicken was fantastic! my mouth still waters thinking of it. aih.
the people were around, joking, laughing, eating and sleeping.

it was perfect.
except for the first night where i was shivering cold trying to get some sleep.
Mwahahahaha.

DIgital photo Frame

we finally got around using the digital photo frame vik bought for appa. :)
i uploaded quite a many photographs of people i know of,
those who are really close to my heart.

as i sit here,
memories of tender moments flash by,
and i can't help but sigh,
not in sadness,
but with gratitude and awe,
of my relatives' beauty.

is it the palaniandy gene acting?
or maybe, its because i cherish all of you oh-so-much?
some handsome, some beautiful,
some yet to bloom sweetie pies,
some aged by years of experience, but glowing just as bright.

i guess, i love you people.
as troublesome as it may be sometimes,
its just worth it...
having MI FAMILIA around.
:")

a fool's confidence

i have decided,
that...
no matter how unprepared and ignorant i am
i will march into the exam hall
brimming with confidence
(as the cruelty of time sinks in)
with high hopes that it will somehow,
help me through.

so...
here i come,
with 100% sureness of scoring well.
well enough.
=3

updates on me

long time no see you, dear blog.

how long has it been since i last saw you?

one day? one week? a fortnight? a month?

i... miss you.

hehe...

i find that i tend to want to talk more with the people i know.

i wonder why.

its just that the buzzing atmosphere here's starting to deafen me.

life, is naught but filled with things we must get done with.

haha. >.<" sad but... true.

exams ah, EXAMS!!!

please be kind to me.

thank you very much for your overwhelming kindness.

mucho gracias.

i need to study! but but but.

there u have it. a me with many buts.

but but but but.

my favourite word for now.

i mean right now. or well maybe, for today. XD

love u lots.

wishing that everyone has had a nice day.

muakk.

ps: like the song King of Anything- Sara Bareilles

but but but~ be gone~! :<

I.love.Myself.

This is something i made.

just now. like, 5 minutes ago.

my kind of self- appreciation.

my love for myself.

and hopefully,

a guide for those, who...

can't, or find it difficult to whisper:

I. love. Myself.

ps: it's not that nice.

but i guess, it's enough.

from,

a fellow narcissist.

XD

Bill Clinton

bill clinton, william jefferson clinton,

the ex- president of america came to inti today!!!

apparently he is laureate's chancellor,

and has been to seven, if i'm not mistaken, laureate's universities.

there were a few phrases of his that i like:

focus on doing what you can do,

not on what you cannot do.

it is not the absence of perfection that kills,

it is the absence of possibilities.

what are you going to do?

how much money you have.

How? are you going to work on it.

1 billion people (1/6 of the global population) live on less than USD 2 daily.

2.5 billion people lack basic sanitary accesses.

130 million children have never set foot into a classroom.

1 out of 4 deaths are due to diseases such as malaria, cholera, diarrhoea. these are the diseases of the poor. they die just because they are poor.

don't ask me how i remembered the figures.

i have no idea how. ?0?

but yes, each and everyone of us are responsible to the society.

youth empowerment, interdependence,

strengthening of the global economy,

will only show positive effects if we, stand up for what is right.

bill clinton:

"when we were young, we were asked to study as much as possible, get into universities, take up a job, work an earnest day's work, even if you're leaving the job, you still have to put in what you're paid for, raise a family, and such... but now, there is a new addition to becoming a good global citizen: contributing back to society."

ps: i think that bill clinton's a very practical man, he reminds me of appa,

>.<" especially by the way he says and does things.

Suspicion & Love

suspicion kills.

over time, paranoia builds.

what is left...

is nothing but doubt.

suspicion saves.

it thrives, providing sanctuary.

what is achieved...

is nothing but life.

love is naught but kind,

selfless, forgiving, and undying.

when love is love, and all the more,

what else would it look like?

still,

pure as an angel, and white as snow?

or black, like the dark cloudy sky,

preparing to shed teary raindrops

that pierce and shatter our dear hearts?

i have no idea what i'm rambling about.

>.<"

life is so, that we put one foot forward,

after another,

to go on..., and on..., and on....,

until the day we vanish and disappear

to become twinkling stars of the night sky...

i guess?

aching legs heal,

aching arms heal,

aching eyes heal,

aching hearts, will heal...

someday...

it will...

i hope.

:D

to everyone:

happy belated deepavali!!!

wherever you are, wherever you go,

do not worry,

because we have pictures of newly created memories

for you.

not only photos, videos too! ^0^

in facebook, external drives and handphones.

some yet to be uploaded.

will do it by this week. :)

Spanish

Uno.

Duos.

Tres.

Quatro. Cinco. Seys.

Siete.

Ocho.

Nueve.

Diez.

:3

Plans

I am such a pig.

Whatever plan i make, somehow finds its way to sleepyland.

oh gosh, shoot. >0<"

i'll make myself finish off my work,

even if it means that i have to threaten and coax myself,

or take away my own privileges. >.<"

there is always a way, when, a will arises.

the will, will blossom now,

and so, will my petals of work fall off my tree.

mwahaha. X3

adios humans. See you soon.

In hopes that progress works its way.

p.s: i can actually skate!

okay, well maybe not too well, but well, wobbly skate.

hehehehe...

and yesterday was tata's death anniversary.

i love him lots, and am sure that others do too.

no matter where you are now,

thank you.

we loved u and will always do.

:)

a prayer... for u

let's just say i'm really happy right now.

it's a friday! 2.30 a.m.

supposed to be sleeping, but somehow,

feel like there's something left undone.

what is it? i wonder...

i guess, it's this:

hello, there.

i hope that everything's fine.

i pray that u are smiling, even if it has been a gloomy day.

i pray that beauty is appreciated anywhere, any time.

i pray that birds sing for you, welcoming u into life's adventures.

i pray that somewhere out there, someone's thinking of u.

i pray that u have a kindred heart, when all is neigh.

i pray that u are resplendent, even when covered in sweat and soot.

i pray that u remain as u are, no matter the circumstances.

i pray that u find a light in the deepest, darkest tunnels.

i pray that time pools u in, gives u wisdom, courage and love.

i pray... ... for u.

:)

views from the inside

the ktm ride today flashed by.

it all seemed really surreal,

as i watched the last rays of sun illuminating fields of wild grasses,

painting a view of yellow, green, brown...

a picture akin to paddy fields...

or so i imagine.

i felt as though i was in a movie,

as the main character,

lost in my own thoughts, my own world.

the whole world blurry, from the windows of the compartments.

rays of sunlight play hide and seek, some shining through the bald spots of the ageing rambutan tree.

it was all so scenic, i couldn't help but think:

woah... this is the country that i grew up in.

this is the country that i love and adore, am familiar with, and have feelings to.

this beauty, that can be found here, only in malaysia...

my malaysia, so endearing yet so complicated, in numerous ways.

translation failed...

my friend, Thivya uttered a line:

Digen is going to die in my hands.

and the excited me asked, rather hopefully:

can i translate that? o0o

Thivya did not understand what i was asking for.

so i opened my mouth,

and pieced up my extremely poor vocabulary of the tamil language:

Digen en kai satthum pothathu.

... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ...

Thivya burst out laughing, followed by Vaish. >.<"

wrong, i guess? o.O

Thivya explained: satthum pothathu is for animals..hahahaha.. XD good try though.

ooops? ... hehe... ... sorry, Digen. :P

the correct line is: Digen en kaiyil setthum povaan.

or so i think. =3

oh by the way,

this happened in physics tuition.

i started going for tuition.

yep.

You, my friend, did not read wrong.

Tuition. every Thursday nights.

i enjoyed the class, and found that Mr. Kingsley kind of resembles Mr. Wong.

they both teach in such a fun and practical manner, that you can't help but lose yourself with the flow. XD

its a good thing.

i think that my brain functioned a little that night.

;)

For Vik :D

To Vik

it may not be much, :3

but it contains a whole lot of wishes.

love you lots, vik.

happy birthday!

from Us.

Perplexed

anyone out there reading my posts?

i wonder...

it feels slightly different blogging in blogspot.

there's no comments, no feedbacks.

My blog seems to be deserted and lonely.

i guess its a good sign, since it is, a diary, all be it an online one. =)

I got shoes today! ^0^

a pair of asics running shoes and another pair of sandals.

point to note: have to start jogging soon.

tipped the scale to the right for about 3kgs. >.<"

the journey to inti was suffocating.

i meant to take the 6.00 p.m. train, but it came at 6.20 and refused to budge for 20 odd minutes.

i was sweating profusely like someone in a desert, squashed between angry faces and tensed body gestures, with many annoyed little sounds. well, maybe not so little.

when it finally started moving, i was ecstatic. Yay!

but the system went cuckoo, and the train moved backwards slightly.

we were on a boat. a boat filled with such strenuous energy, lightning could strike and be repelled.

this went on for 2 more times.

at around 7.00 p.m. , the train was on its course, only to stop for another 5 minutes or more in the tiroi station. and another place somewhere in between tiroi and labu. >.<"

when it reached nilai, the train was so congested, i couldn't get out.

panic-stricken, i shouted EXCUSE ME! to the people who were pushing their way into the train.

Fortunately, i did manage to get out. phew. :3

met kina at the bus stop and had dinner with her and vima in the cafeteria while watching the female synchronised diving session for commonwealth 2010.

i better sleep now.

good night and sweet dreams everyone.

i love u lots.

Gardening

So, this is what i spent my saturday afternoon on.

Gardening.

Or rather, plant chopping, demolishing, killing, ripping

or whatever else you would call it.

Massacre, even. XD.

I practically tore the leaves from their branches,

and later, broke the branches too.

What a good way to de- stress one's self.

It is free and self- satisfying.

You get to axe for goodness sake, what more can you expect?! o0o

Anyways,

the whole "clearing the jungle in front of our house" idea came from amma,

who buttoned up her shirt to her neck,

just to prevent possible allergies. >.<"

Chopped, Weeded, Packed the unfortunates.

After all, who am i to deny their rights to live?

But, yes, there is always a but;

my dear amma said something so philosophical,

it shocked me:

You have to cut off the old branches for new ones to grow.

Glimpses of Ma's hidden intelligence. :P

Found a metal bar, a wooden plank, a clay pot,

a deflated basketball, plentiful papers.

8.00 p.m. : We threw the body bags

(filled with leaves and branches OF COURSE!)

and finally, i mean finally,

got to rest. =3

A pretty picture of the sunset, taken at about 7 p.m.

Sky Art of My hometown.

Eat, Pray, Love

i salute:

Dolce Far Niente

" I "

i notice that sometimes,
life, is hard.
i realise that maybe,
things, just don't seem right.
i accept that occurrences happen,
as coincidences do.
i understand that fate,
is ours to decide.

i disagree with:
everything that comes easily,
goes easily.

i would say,
many chances are around us,
waiting for its moment of recognition.
with widened sights and brightened minds,
blessed are we with luck and vitality,
hope afresh, for all humankind.

A Cute Conversation (from the past)

Lately, I have been reading my previous blogs from windows live.
I especially love this one:


Saturday, 23rd January 2010.
my dad and i had gone to pick my mom from work since her car was sent to the mechanic earlier on that day.
this scene happened in the blue iswara car, around 9.45 p.m. at the bypass in jalan rasah.
the sky was dark and the street, lonely.
my dad and mom were sitting in front while i, as the spectator of the day, sat at the back.

(midway through the conversation)
pa : your own car got spoilt also you didn't realize ar?
ma: ah? the car got spoilt?
pa : the air-cond was blowing hot air only. i just changed the compressor.you should have noticed.
ma: ah... what was wrong with the compressor?
pa : ... ... ... ... there was a big rat in it.

----------------------------------------SILENCE-----------------------------------------------

ma: ... haha... hahaha < looking around>... hahahaha...


i was in the backseat laughing my head off...as you can imagine.
i can't actually describe their expressions here but it was darn cute to me.
i kind of regretted not recording this whole conversation between them two.
but of course, there are always opportunities. =)


Lovable expressions,
from the two most adorable people whom i love lots. ^0^

Hey There!!!

I find the lack of a space to commit my thoughts to, frustrating.
It has been a long time now, since I last blogged.
So many "laters" led to the bleak outcome of a blog skin of my own.
Therefore, I have decided to use this template momentarily.
Or rather, until I find a way around the mysterious and dumbfounding CSS sheet, look no more for a unique skin that screams SHALZ!!! >.<''
Anyway, I hereby declare today as the reopening day of 'freak*A*zone'. XD
Hoping that you'll have fun reading my life's journey, this is Me. =)